This song by Katy Perry has been running through my head for the past couple of days and the lyrics ring true:
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind, wanting to start again?
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards, one blow from caving in?
Do you ever feel already buried deep?
Six feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you?
You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July
'Cause baby, you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine
Just own the night like the 4th of July
'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go, oh
As you shoot across the sky
Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colors burst
Make 'em go, oh
You're gonna leave 'em falling down
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Figured I'd share that with everyone. :) It has a lot of meaning to a lot of people. It was sung on last night's episode of Glee *Yes, I do love the show..can't help it. the energy is so gravitational!* and it's a great way to pick up your life where it is and just let yourself shine.
Recently I have been dealing with some stresses: Starting work for the first time *Yikes!*, trying to figure out where the heck I'm going in life, learning about and accepting my flaws and my little quirks, and just learning about me as a person. Of course, I have a rather large family *the only girl in a houseful of guys* so that in itself can keep a girl on her toes! The pressure certainly get's quite heavy at times and I often feel overwhelmed by the many different direction's I find myself staring at, but then my lovely and ever faithful iPod plays this song and all my trouble goes away for a little bit as I let the words wash over me and I know that I will be okay no matter what. It's a pretty neat feeling, actually!
My first night at work was pretty memorable. I recently got hired at the local Dairy Queen thanks to one of my best friends,
Meghan. I honestly didn't know what to expect, and when I stress, I tend to bite my nails, so I have no nails on my left hand because of this horrible habit of mine! I walked in and my intimidating bossman was not there as far as I could tell so I relaxed. A LOT. Score, right? My first name is Samantha, so I was asked if I was Samanthat by my lovely co-worker Tasha. I inwardly cringed and corrected her as I have my whole life to others, that I go by Paige. Got my shirt and was given a rundown of the whole back of the building and let me tell ya, there was a LOT to remember! The cooler was pretty nifty, though! Lot's of high shelves and much of the stock was on high shelves, so for good measure, stood on my tippy-toes just to see if I would be able to reach anything, and Yup! Being five-foot does have it's drawbacks and bonuses as well. I had Torie and Tasha telling me how stuff works and where everything was and what goes in what and how to do this that and whatever else at a hundred miles an hour and I was quite proud of the fact I could keep up, actually! My first task was to make a vanilla milkshake. Sounds easy, right? It is..when it's not the first thing you EVER make for a customer who is standing there watching you! I'll be honest. The blender, makes me a little nervous. Got softserve splatter all over my shirt in the first two seconds. I was being told to not be scared of the blender, but I had never seen a blender quite like this one! It looked like one of my dad's drillbits. Anywho.. got it and about a zillion other things done that night, and let me tell ya, it was fun! Some interesting customer's came in and went through the drive-thru all right..One man had gold rimmed Aviators with hot pink lenses! Never have I ever seen that on a man before. Guess he was secure in his manhood. Two customers made that night memorable for me.. Two men came in together and ordered Blizzards and went and sat in the lobby. Since I was the new kid, I had lobby cleanup. Did the usual shaking of the mats and rolling them up, spraying and wipedown of the tables and booths, sweeping, and mopping..ya know, the usual, and I wasnt trying to listen to their conversation, but when you are the only one cleaning in a silent lobby with two other people at a table you go by a lot, it's kind of hard not to hear.
They were discussing God, and from what it sounded like, The older man was ministering to the slightly younger older man. I thought that was really cool. As I passed their table yet again, they were discussing the death toll and funerals of the famous people in the past couple years. I swept past them with still no notice of me and my guilty eavesdropping. But as I was mopping, I had no choice but to inturrupt them to get under their table and the older man said to his friend, "Wow! Guess we better be going! We have been sitting here talking this whole time this young lady has been cleaning.Oh, and that Blizzard was really, really good." I told them they didnt have to leave on my account and I told them thank you for the compliment on the Blizzard *that I didnt make, I only gave to them* The older man then asked me "Do you enjoy cleaning?" I replied, "No sir, but it has to be done, so here I am" He then said " I know how you feel..I have been cleaning my whole life." I politely asked what it was that he does for a living and he told me bluntly "I clean toilets everyday." Not a whole lot you can respond with so I just nodded. His friend spoke up and said "Yeah! and If you go to the Library and see how neat and clean it is, it's because of me!" He was so proud of himself, it made me smile. "I tend to the pretty flowers around the building too!" On that note he and his friend began discussing the tasks they do to each other and they looked just so..happy! I cut in and thanked them for keeping places like that clean and kept up for us, the people of Montgomery and Wetumpka and they thanked me for everything I had done that night and I confessed that it was my first night and that I really was trying. They were very surprised and they thanked me again for doing such an amazing job and to keep up the good work. That SO made my night. I thanked them and then thanked them for coming in and to have a great night and to please come again, and they both responded "oh, we definately will. Ya'll are doing such a great job here" Pretty cool to meet people like that. Every order I passed out that night I always told them to have a great night and
Torey kept saying "aww, that's so nice!"
I mentioned it to my dad and he said most people don't say stuff like that anymore and I will be honest, I was horrified! It just comes natural to me, I guess. I treat other's the way I want to be treated.
Oh! I go in to get my wisdom teeth removed on VALENTINES DAY. What a sucky way to spend the day! I am soo grateful I don't have a boyfriend for this holiday cause I am NOT gonna want to do anything that night.
I'll try to post again soon!
