so much so much so much

Ok.
Breath.
Close your eyes.
Count to ten.
Breath.
Open your eyes.

It's how I get through each day. The world is a pretty overwhelming place to be in right now..especially in my own private world. I 'm almost 20. I'm not in school. *I will be*. My job can be pretty stressful at times-though some would argue that with me, but they arent me, so they have no right to-, I'm making a plan that lays out the rest of my life and includes the important and unimportant people in my life, so I guess everyone is involved in one way or another! I try balancing my time between family and friends and work, though sometimes I neglect my family a little more than I should. I know it is nowhere near as stressfull as a lot of peoples, and perhaps it's because Im giving yall the short staccato version. Who really knows. I do tend to overthink things, and I know this. I'm a natural born worrier. Get used to it. I am panicking slightly at the looming truth that is my life and that, HEY! YOU ARE AN ADULT NOW! MAKE YOUR OWN LIFE, YOUR OWN DECISIONS, CAUSE IF YOU SCREW UP, IT'S NOBODY'S FAULT BUT YOURS! so, as you can see, the stress level goes up a few notches. Kinda a lot right now.. so much so much so much, to be exact. It will be okay. :)



So..last night..was..

AMAZING.


No joke. Went to Frazer's Dinner Theatre and saw my brother sing his heart out. It was great!!

Watched my dad dance with two little girls and it made me smile. Made me wish I could be that small again.

Had some amazing friends come out to support Alex and it hit me while we were eating, just how much respect they have for me that they would pay to come out and see a bunch of middle/high school kids sing about New York and to support a brother of mine they have met maybe, oh I dont know, twice? Ever. Loved it.

Went to a fire at a girlfriend's house and her boyfriend, (who is my best friend in the world and favorite singing partner) brought his awesome sound system and iPod, so you know it was gonna be a good time. My lovely soul sister and my boyfriend decided to join us, and let me tell you. Cupid Shuffle in a skirt and sandals with the wind blowing is NO easy task..neither is Cha Cha Slide. Ahh but as soon as Jacob hit play on Whiskey Lullaby, I got into singing mode and he and we nailed it! Singing, to me, sets my soul free.

All in all, it was just a great night all around. Now the real world comes up and taps me on the shoulder, as if to say "Well, you had a couple days of fun, now its time to go back to being an adult." And so, I must.