Choices

O.K. So. My life has changed drastically in 2011. I was living in Washington, but I knew I had to come back home. So I did. New Year's Day, actually. Last year was quite possibly one of the worst years for me personally, and I was ready to take on the new year with my fight face! Little did I know what I was going into with my little fight face on. I got back, re-adjusted to life here, got in the swing of things, then got my first job. Ever. At Dairy Queen. Which turned out to be not soo nice. But ill come back to that. I started at Dairy Queen, then found out I had to have my wisdom teeth removed. Now, if you know me at all, you will understand why the thought of this excited me. I was so excited about the thought of being able to have my wisdom teeth and to just look at it from a medical point of view and to muse over the intracies of how they could possibly be in my mouth, and then out in 15 minutes. (Im sure this is probably sounding pretttty gross, but bear with me) So as I was slowly recovering from that after a few complications, I recieve a friend request on Facebook.
The picture was not that great, couldnt really tell who this mystery person looked like, but, always the curious friend maker, I played it safe and messaged this person. Pretty sure I wouldnt recieve a reply, I started to log off, when I noticed I had a reply! Yay! So this mystery person revealed that he was friends with one of my best friends. So, taking this as a credible source and after texting her to make sure, I added him. He and I messaged back and forth and the first thing that caught my attention was how articulate and proper he was with his spelling. That is a big deal to me. He messaged me his number and told me to feel free to text him. So I did. We ended up talking until 3 in the morning and we talked about everything. I knew he was going to be mine after that. :) He called me the next night on his way home from work and oh his voice. I had never heard a voice I had liked as much as this guy's. I know its totally cheesy, but put it with crackers and you have a snack. I seriously could listen to his voice till the world ended. He was very smart too. Very. Another plus. He and I talked non stop that day and night and all the next day and I was very surprised that I kinda liked him a lot more than I had originally intended. He came to my house, and actually sat down with my dad and asked his permission to date me. Yup. I was hooked. He ended up asking me out just before he left and the rest is history! I have found my prince and I could never be happier. We are a done deal and we are so excited about it! But..here lies the rub.
I am going back to Washington. June 11. Return date: Unknown. Yeah. Super Sucks, huh? Going back is my decision, and Im excited about school and getting a job that pays more than $7.25 an hour, but not happy in the slightest sense of the word of leaving him here. He says he will be wherever I am, and for that I am grateful, knowing that is helping me in more ways than he will ever know. It's going to be hard. But we have our fight faces on, and are ready to tackle this obstical that will truly test our love and relationship, but I am completely convinced it will only make it stronger. I have cried more in the past week or so than I can honestly say I have cried in a year. I wish choices didnt have to be so hard. That everyone involved could win and everyone be happy. But unfortunately, life simply doesnt work like that. He calmed my fears the other night by telling me that he is not looking at it as me leaving leaving, tha the see's it as me getting a head start on our future and that he will be wherever I am. This is one of the many reasons why I love him. He knows how to reach me in a way most do not, and he knows just what Im truly needing him to say and he just says it so effortlessly. Everything will be okay. Just totally overwhelming and scary and uncertainty taking over me, but I know once I get past this and everyhting starts falling into place, I'll be okay. I have my amazing family and friends behind me every step of the way :)